Last night’s post was about perspective. Even though it was negative in nature, I think a lot of good came out of it. I’m not perfect, but I have an awesome life. As my friend Cary put it ….”Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.” If it’s good enough for Batman, it’s good enough for me.

You just gotta keep going, right? People have it worse off then me and you for sure. You and I are blessed, whatever that means. Personally, you know how I know I’m lucky as Hell? This picture:

Wrigley Field

That would be me touching the ivy ON the field at Wrigley. I have thousands of similar memories in which I was fortunate enough to do what I think are awesome things. So I’ll suck it up and move forward now, but thank you everyone that shouted out encouragement from the rooftops (aka the comments section). You guys are awesome, personified.

Also this:


I saw this today after I felt slightly bad about dropping the F bomb so many times last night. It made me feel a little better. I lost my shit pretty solidly last night. Everything kind of built up and I haven’t been exercising as a normal release of frustration like I used to do with the noon hoops everyday.  I hope I didn’t offend you with my language, if I did, please read that quote up there one more time. Thanks. 😉 winkyface

Honestly, it felt great to wake up knowing that even when I was in a pretty big moment of weakness, I still had enough in the tank to give the pizza the floor treatment.

threw it on the ground gif

just imagine it was pizza

Everything is going to be fine. I got over my momentary ridiculousness, and I’m better for it.

Here’s a random jump:

Here’s another random jump.

Ryan Panos is eight days in to his non-smoking adventure. He’s currently killing it. Hasn’t smoked in 8 days. It’s incredible. This is how I imagine he feels. Terrified Indiana Jones. Like, a badass that is getting shit done, but also scared of slipping up:

Don’t worry Panos, everyone is pulling for you!

Alright, selfishly back to me now…I think I’m actually in decent health these days, and considering the last time I went to the doctor it was basically…

Dr. Leo Spaceman

I’m pretty happy that I’m sticking with the 100 day challenge and the weight loss and what not. I walked to work this morning, and rode my bike home. I was at work from 7am to 6pm with no breaks other than scarfing down a sandwich, so by leaving my car at home I forced myself to do something barely passable as cardio. That felt good. Also my birthday present to myself came. I ordered a Nike Fuel bracelet. It lets you know how much you are exercising, and it’s just another cool thing to use to try to burn some calories. I’ll have a review of it tomorrow after I use it.

Side note. My knee really bothers me. It’s like a constant reminder that I’m still fat. I can’t wait until that no longer bothers me. That’ll be a good day.

Speaking of work, (wait…I wasn’t talking about work you say? shut up) Today, I took all of the layouts and talked to all of the customers and figured all of the bids and wrote all of them up. Fortunately, none of them looked like this:

That’s a building in Germany that plays music when it rains due to the cool downspouts they have going on. It’s probably really really really really annoying if you live there.

Monday, I’ll be officially on my own. One thing that freaks me out is my handwriting. I’m right handed, but I learned to write from my dad, who is left handed, so I hold the pen all jacked up and everything I write looks like Michael J. Fox wrote it after a bottle of wine. SO, I’m currently looking into mobile printing solutions for the truck so I can print out the bids rather than hand write them.

Everyone tells me just to take my time like that’s the solution. You know what happens when I take my time? It looks shitty as ever AND it makes me late for my next estimate. That’s stupid.

stupid people are stupid gif

I’m going the hell to bed so I can be super awesome at work tomorrow. It’s my last full day of learning on the job with Charles in Charge, so I’ll be making the most of it.

Night lovers.

In the morning I’ll be watching this before I go to work. It makes me laugh so hard EVERY time I watch it.


  1. rmpanos says:

    Thanks for using that awful picture of me about 35 pounds heavier than I am now Ben, haha. Thanks for the shout out and the constant encouragement man. It is much appreciated!!! Keep doing what you do bro and I cannot wait until September 1st.

  2. “Charles in charge.” That actually made me laugh pretty hard for some reason. Hey Ben, keep up the good work, friend. You and Ryan are doing amazing and the world would be a way cooler place to live if there were more men like you guys in it. In the meanwhile, I will continue to put up with the d-bags that live in California with me. Over and out.

  3. Kelly says:

    Love that picture but you should’ve TOLD me it was blurry so I could retake it!!

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